Secret Stash 225

 Ebla by E.S. Posthumus Damn... I feel unstoppable AHHAAHHAHA. Cold showers are nothing to me now. Working out? That is a part of life. Reading? A man doesn't even need to try. These things just happen. Thank the almighty fathers for Habitica (go download the app now, it will build you into the super human you strove to become). I didn't realize the progress made until I stood under an ice cold waterfall... and felt nothing. I'll be honest. I didn't think I would ever enjoy or look forward to taking cold shower, but I faced it one day at a time. Next thing you know, I don't even count the days anymore. Its another part of life now. Why would anyone ever put themselves through this sht and take cold showers? It was a test of willpower. No matter how strong the man. No matter how many nations he's conquered or seas he's sailed... there is something about submerging in the ice that will make a man hesitate. No one will ever know if you really took cold showers,...

The water is starting to settle. I'm finally getting my sht together again hahahaha. Work is getting easier, workouts are getting harder, leg is healing, mind is growing, life is better. Lately, I have made it a habit to write down 3 aims for the day in the morning and 3 successes for that day at night. It keeps me accountable because there is no better feeling than knowing that you are progressively working towards your goals and ambitions. On the flipside, it feels like absolute ape shit when you can't write down a single success for that day. Anything that contributes to my growth as a person or anything that brings me closer to my goal of becoming a physician is considered a success. Finished an application or an interview, learned a new skill, new friend, new lifting PR, finished a book, learned a song on saxophone = successes. In sum, learning anything is considered a success; it doesn't matter whether its a new crossover move in basketball or finding a novel restaura...

 Procrastination, weak mental effort, a feeling of lostness - these are side effects of not knowing your WHY. I forgot why I woke up every morning. I forgot why I trained, why I studied, why I hold myself to such a high standard. The short term explanation is easy. Applications to get in and working out to get stronger, but what does that matter in the grand scheme of one's life? That is where the WHY comes in. KD (also known as slim reaper, EZ money sniper, snake god, Orochimaru) is one of the greatest scorers of all time. He carries any organization that he's a part of. Cold blooded. 3 championships but those aren't his only WHYs. Before every game, he touches his front and back jersey numbers and points to the sky. 35. The age of one his most beloved coaches when he died. After every game, there's no hootin or hollering or jumping for joy either; he goes straight to the stands to hug his mama and daps up his brothers. Then, he's gone. KD plays for more than victo...

I had fallen off the path. My mind was preoccupied by goals and objects of no value. I chased something that had no value and worried over another thing that had no place in my future. I let them drain my time and my energy. As a result, I had fallen off the path. Lost. I sacrificed my own health and well being despite knowing it was not worth it. I had eaten sht food when I could have easily resisted. BUT NO MORE! From this day forth, nothing will stop me from working towards my true goal. I will embark 100% of being into it. My energy, my sleep, and all of my time. A new fire will burn tonight. In a way, I needed this setback. show time