That's happened to me
I've never wanted something so bad in this life. It is almost as if I am manic. I've lost my mind... "I've lost my mind doing this doing this sht. Like Vincent van Gogh. He dedicated his life to his art and lost his mind in the process. That's happened to me. But f--k it." -The Notorious Every second of everyday is dedicated towards this one goal. I train and study every waking second until my mind is mush. Until every fiber in my being is screaming for me to stop. Until the people around me beg me to tone it back- then I keep going. We are more capable than we believe, and now, I finally get a glimpse of it. I've squandered many years with half-assed effort, but no more. The goal is all I think about now. It wakes me up every morning and keeps me up every night. Everything else in life on hold. Let's fucking get it.