Last Goodbye

 Update: I write this at my desk in the early afternoon (first time home at this hour in ages). Good Riddance by Green Day runs on loop.

Dear Future Me,

    Today was suppose to be liberating, but all I feel is pain. Now, I know what it feels like to say your last good bye. The comradery, relationships, and memories created will stay with me forever. BRUH... it was only 8 months lol, so why does it sting so much (like a graduation). The clinic had been a big part of my life - spending 40+ hrs a week there. Seeing and working with the same people everyday, but now, its over just like that. Nobody died but it sure felt like it haha (probably never see most of them again :(

    It seems we never really appreciate things till they’re about to end. In the meat of it (bad term but whatever), I didn’t take the time to be grateful for the people and wholesome experiences happening each day. During my last 2 weeks though, shiiiiiii.... I was so happy to wake up and work hahaha. Hek... these last couple days I worked full energy & did extra.

    The same idea applies to school as well. My last year of college was the best because I knew it was going to end tried to enjoy every remaining moment. This idea can be applied to almost everything like relationships, vacations (On the last afternoon of our ski trip, we went ham), etc.

    If only I knew and tried to enjoy these moments more... BUT I CAN. I WILL BE GRATEFUL EVERYDAY OF LIBERATION :D .

And when I return to school or work: I will enjoy every lecture, exam, and presentation in school; I will cherish every moment with my teammates.

FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEDOMMMMMMMMMM

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