Bum Lord

 Dear Future Me, 

It has been roughly one month after liberation, and I have fallen into a rut. I let the care free days slowly drain me of my purpose. My days begin at noon and my nights end when I fall asleep (whatever time that is). There is no order or productivity anymore; I am the reincarnation of a sloth (also clash of clans is destroying my life LOL). The only consistent thing in my days now is jiu-jitsu practice, and truthfully, I love it more than basketball. Nonetheless, the slothdom MUST END!


Figure 1. Fat dude from Wall-E. The 500 lb male (right) exercises 1 min a day compared to his 480 mins scrolling social media, Netflix, clash of clans, and etc.

...  I needed days like this to learn, to remember these moments, to savor it ALL, TO NEVER be a bum AGAIN. (As tempting as sleeping in everyday or whatever sounds like, it is a curse not a blessing. Man must have purpose and order in life. Life must be lived with a code and a goal in mind.)

The problem isn't that I have no long term goal or purpose (because I do), but rather, I am stuck in a sort of limbo. Months to burn as it seems before school. Don't worry future me, I will set a list for the coming days and throw my whole being into it. IM BACK BOI! GRIND SZN ! LETS GOOOOOOOOOOOOO

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