What is life without struggle?

 Greetings Future Me,

    It is the middle of night, and I rolled out of bed just to write this (lofi jammin in the back). Why so urgent you may ask... because I want you to remember this moment, these past few months. A thought occurred to me, and I fear that you will never remember what it was truly like and look back with rose colored glasses. 

    Everyone looks brightly upon a life free of worries, obligations, and problems - to have comfort. Not a single DAMN thing to ponder/ruminate about for months. To sleep and wake at anytime, to go anywhere, eat anytime at any restaurant (hoop, game, drink, read, learn, workout) The time to research and dive into 100 different hobbies, but despite all this... COMFORT IS NOT HAPPINESS. XD

    Even if something is lined up in the coming months, right now it just feels... stagnant. There has to be direction - the feeling of moving forward - a need for a problem to solve or visible goals to work for. Damn this limbo, let me back on the grind again (hahaha I might eat those words in the future ). Thus, Future Me, when you are waist deep in the gruel of your training, don't look back and yearn for these "glory days" because it wasn't as good as it sounds. Comfortable ? HELL YEA. Fulfilling? meh not really. This might be a case of "the grass is not always greener on the other side" but we will see.

(late on book review this week, I will catch up)



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