Secret Stash 225

 Got sick and got better. Weak ass virus... if it's going to infect me, then it's got to try harder. I'm going to study my ass off and crush these exams. Enough wallowing and pitying, it's time to get shit done. No more burst of energy wah wah bullshit. It's all discipline now. Write down what you need to get done and then do it. 

Greetings to the future,      I need to catch up on sleep. My sleep average has sunken to a terribly low state of like 6 hr average. The baffling thing is that I no longer have assignments or "homework", so what is keeping me up? Not only that, but my commute is nonexistent. Sometimes I literally roll out of bed into the classroom within a 20 min span. I sacrifice my sleep to keep chipping away at a titanic sized glacier of school material. It is a cycle of sleeplessness because I cannot focus in lecture when tired and must stay up later at night to review the material. However, like DiCaprio, I have now realized that it's not optimal to keep chipping away at the glacier while sacrificing my recovery.      The naysayers may claim that sleep is for the weak, but they are wrong - sleep strengthens you. Sleep is when memories are consolidated and where muscle is built. It's not about time management, but rather, it is energy management! When deprived of one's ...

 Dear Future Me,     HOLY MOGLY it's getting busy. First week back was slow, and then, I blinked for a second. Now, there's a mountain. I'm not gonna lie though, half of it is my own undoing (bummed around for an hour earlier watching fitness youtube instead of studying) , but the other half is life coming fast. There needs to be more hours in a day. Now, I'm sitting here writing this instead of studying hahahhaah      Má, do you remember those plastic plates I almost refused to take? - I use them almost everyday now. I'm sitting here and feasting - 3 fried eggs, 14oz grilled chicken, & a bowl of fresh blueberries. No seasoning. This is what the stegosaurus ate, fruits & dodos. Bruh, i'm becoming delusional... come on 3 more lectures to review today LETS GET IT! Figure 1 . The stegosaurus started eating more eggs to increase his choline levels which improves focus. The brain fogged T-Rex, who does not meditate or sleep sufficiently, stumbles due to ...

 Dear Future Me,     A new block begins and already my good habits are deteriorating. My great vice strikes me down once more; I was going so strong too. Additionally, I cut class today and fell further behind in lectures. It's only day 2, but the thing is that I've seen this story too many times - the man who thinks he's ahead starts to slack. I should have went to the gym. I want to be better, I want to be great. What's stopping a man form working and willing himself to be better? NOTHING, only himself     Give me 30 days. I will build a discipline and focus that you've never seen. I will rise before the time machine every morning. Icy waterfalls everyday. My mind will not break. I will start meditating. I will train everyday no matter the circumstances. I will never, I MEAN NEVER cut lecture again. I stumbled a step backwards today, but tomorrow... 10 steps forwards. What does man lose for trying to be better? Nothing, he can only end up where he is now

Dear Future Me,     Today is Sunday, and I write this from my grandmother's room (she's not here this week, staying with one of my uncles). Glimpse of Us by Joji plays once more; I don't know why I always listen to this when i'm in the feels haha. Ok I switched it to "Happier than Ever" by Billie the Goat Eillish (still a sad song). I am severely sleep deprived despite it being labor day weekend and having nothing to study. Idk why but I can't sleep in or nap anymore - I should just stop writing and take a nap.     Much has happened these past few days. Oh yeah, the exam went well, but I tried not to tell anyone. A lot of people struggled, and I didn't want them to feel worst. Also, Daniel Huberman podcast recommended that by not over celebrating an achievement all at once, we can ride the high of accomplishment much longer. The PTP was suppose to be the light at the end of our tunnel, but uhhh it didn't go too well. My big gave me easy advice ...