Secret Stash 225

update: i returned home and damn... I missed this city. I took peace & quiet for granted - slept like a rock. Trees and grass - a rare sighting nowadays. Good roads, open parking, clean streets, happy people. hahahah i was so hyped to leave too. These past days I was bumming - netflix rampage though. I saw Dracula & some Vinland saga. My only criteria for a good movie or show is that at least one character lives with character and grit -someone I can stand behind or relate to. Courage, honor, willpower. That is all a man needs. In Dracula, Orlando Bloom refused to concede his son & people to the Sultan and then sacrificed himself by becoming a vampire. After transforming himself into a monster to save his kingdom, he was able to refuse the bloodlust. Even after losing everything, he kept his honor till the end. It was never about his powers or abilities; we respect him because of his resolve and dedication to a nobler cause. If a man can stay true to his virtues despite wat...

I didnt know older bro had a playlist (and he grew a whole ass beard when I was gone), stole this song right from it. Party favor by Billie the Goat Eillish been running on repeat. Speaking of bros, I finally got the book younger bro gave me for my birthday -  Self Reliance  by Ralph Waldo Emerson. I'll write a review once i finish, but so far it's very interesting. Upon my brief hiatus from the grinds of life, I write this in the comfort of my cozy old room; it is now stark of my belongings except for my dusty books perched on the shelves (and the extra monitors & family junk, it has transformed into their 2nd attic haha). Lately, the fam has been back together for dinner every night; it's been fun catching up and seeing how everyone is going their own way. Thanksgiving wasn't as extravagant as past years, but I am still grateful and still managed to stuff myself lol. Many of the extended family weren't there and I do miss them - if ever to bring back the good ...

its been a while... hold up let me run through this lecture one more time Okay lets get it Chilly November winds, short days, long nights. A plain bowl of rice in my hand. IT'S THAT TIME! A new year begins for me. This past year was a great one.  Recap: Made close friends. Worked my first full-time job. Fell in love. Started listening to country music. Accepted into med school. Ate out more- every sushi restaurant in town. Started going out more. Fell out of love. Quit job. Switched to reading nonfiction. Developed consistent lifting routine. Put on 15 lbs of lean beef ever since. Started fighting. Joined Brazilian jiu jitsu gym. Started wearing XL shirts. Injured hand. Volunteered as a summer camp counselor. Made new friends. Moved to another city for school. Learned to make food. Study my ass off everyday. Started waking up at 5am. Whooped that exam's ass. Started slacking. Stopped waking up at 5. Got my ass whooped. The cycle continues. This past year had a lot of first time...

It tis the wee hours of the night. There is silence . Today was good. Tomorrow will be great.  I had a realization. There is no single formula for success. Lately, I have been forcing new habits upon myself that do not serve me in any form. Yes, they will build discipline, but it's been a couple weeks. Not much has changed. No need to fix what was not broken (double negative haha). One thing is certain - my appreciation for the things I have given up. The Promise When in Rome. Damn the sound of music is good. I lost myself in the textbooks and Powerpoints. I would have become like a toby McGuire version of myself - all spiderman's and living the same life, but different origin & personalities. I mean... no shit we're all gonna make it someday, but who are you as person when you reach it.  if a man sacrifices everything and cuts everyone off just to reach the top, when he does get there, then what? Damn rereading this and it feels like a throw of the towel... FEAR NOT! T...

There's always a way to elevate our habits and productivity. When we meet people who are just as obsessed with improvement as we are, we begin to grow again. Throughout these past weeks, I have become a new man. I have shed all the weak layers holding me back. All distractions gone. Streaks, apps, reels - fuck all that. Even music. Unplug from the distractions and focus on the mission. I will never complain again, I don't speak that language. Expect the most from yourself but nothing from others or the world. Everything in life is my responsibility, hop on my fking back - I'll carry it all. "Show up earlier. Stay later. Help others. Ask questions. Stay humble. Work hard when no one is around." Life is all habits, so we must make sure to build good ones. Discipline over motivation everyday any day. Lets put in the work.