Emerson

Update: been listening to Xavier wulf , a whole vibe (whiplash'd is best). These past few weeks I gave in. I took ralph waldo emerson's "a foolish consistency is the hobgoblin of little minds" to a whole new level. I had lost all discipline, habits, and will power. Emerson believed that man should never deny his internal instinct only to follow the habits & disciplines set by another's instincts. Why let others affect your internal nature as emerson would say. I fell trap to this, and discarded my habits. I ate whatever the fk I wanted, no hesitation. I stayed up late and slept as much as needed skipping classes and such. Lifting became more fun, there was no more routine - just whatever I wanted and whenever I wanted. I only studied when I felt like it and when I didn't, I did nothing productive. Life was easy and comfortable.

In a way, I was free. I tried it but was it sustainable? No, I felt like I had stopped improving - I felt weak every time i gave in. It was no way to live. Maybe my nature is to live by higher code, even if it is more difficult. Comfort does not stimulate growth. As plato said, "for a man to conquer himself is the first and noblest of all victories". I need discipline, I need order. CONSISTENCY!

Back to the grind BABY. 1 week left, I can see the end of the tunnel. LETS WORK!

Figure 17. Ice Castle Magic. The dogs of indulgence were crushed by sheer discipline and willpower.