The lack of commitment is a insult to those who believe in you

I failed... it should have never really mattered but it did. I put in all that FUCKING work, but it was for naught. Focused on one leak in the ceiling. Ignored the other leaks and now the whole roof is about to crash down. You could say I that I will learn from this, that I enjoyed the stress and the grind... so DAMN CLOSE. In truth, it was a moral defeat. I gave up before the bell, I should of just went all in and maybe I would have gotten it done. Yea it might not have worked either way and everything  might have went to shit, but I would have went out fighting. Screw it. Keep moving forward. Pull my head out the sand... Put on a happy face. Give advice to the new youngins as my world crumbles. Why is it so quiet right now but I hear so much noise. Sitting here playing chess, stressed the fuck out and exhausted as a dawg. A mountain of work piled up, the pit gets deeper.



The fuq am I saying!? I sacrificed one boat but I can still save the fleet. Fuck it, my boat sails under water if it has to. ITS NOT OVER. 

"Your lack of commitment is an INSULT to all those who BELIEVE IN YOU!" - Mcgregor. I continue for all the people that have helped me along the way. They deserve my best efforts. I will prove them right. GET on my FUCKING back! Are these the HARDEST CHALLENGES the universe can offer?! This IS LIGHT WORK! CMON GIVE me a REAL CHALLENGE! I LIVE FOR THIS

You CANNOT stop me. You WILL not stop me. I WILL win, maybe not today and maybe not tomorrow, but one day because... I ALWAYS win.

LETS FUCKING GO

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