Secret Stash 225

Update: We are here yet again. The weekend was full of festivities; I was able to catchup with my brothers and my people. I put aside my work to relax a little. Maybe a little too relaxed. Like a pendulum, I crave what I don't have, and right now, it is discipline. -- I woke up a new man. I had lost the way - hedonism and vanity and indecisiveness. The worst thing a man can feel is boredom and content. It is in these moments of weakness that our vices strike the hardest. They are the destruction of progress and growth.  Renal has a been a little too laxed... and throughout my years, I learned that it is in these easy times that I seem to regress. I need to throw a wrench into the works. Suffer a little. CMON! YOU GOT WEAK, CONTENT! WHERE IS YOUR BITE? You lost your EDGE, YOUR HUNGER! Don't you want to be GREAT? 

Yo future me, I figured something out lately. As we traverse through this life, we often become immersed in our work. It's easy to just think "nose to the grindstone" and "who's gonna carry the boats." All that RAH RAH bullshit. I get it. I know... but just look around for once. The boats are still gonna be there, so just look up and be grateful. Life is precious. It's more than that its BEAUTIFUL! Don't take it for granted! Especially for the simple things in life. A breath of fresh air, a glass of water.  A smile. A phone call from your mother. A laugh with the lads. An Oreo milkshake after an exam. Remember that you are blessed. It can be stressful and tough at times, but lets be honest. You are where you wanted to be! We fought through sweat and blood for this opportunity, and now that it's here, don't take it for granted. CEASE THE DAY! Carpe Diem! Tomorrow the sun will shine and sky will shimmer in its bluest eminence. The DAY will be F...

So this is life. Sometimes I like to take a step back and see the world in the third person. The hustle and bustle. A race with no prize. A finish line we don't want to think about. Does anybody really know what's going on? Truth is... this is everyone's first time navigating life. No one really knows what's going on haha. We are just rolling with the flow.  So then why are we so hesitant to make a mistake? To get it wrong? Why is there so much pressure to make it ? Wouldn't it be more logical to just settle? To just kick back sip on lemonade and enjoy the sunshine? I think it's ego, but it doesn't make any sense. What are we trying to prove and to who? where did all this drive stem from? I don't know, but its 1 am and sleepy, probably sleep on it. Wake up, forget, and keep grinding "looked up at heavens and saw how small i really was"  - ZB da goat