Secret Stash 225

Overcome with sickness and then broken once more. Physically, figuratively, and spiritually. It is in our weakest moments that vice strikes. From the highest mountain and now tumbling in the deepest valley, I have fallen.  All that discipline... all those habits... the organizing, the plans, I could go on and on. Entropy is winning, everything is a mess. My strength to move has been sapped. My mental is but a haze. And then, the cold, very cold. 1 microscopic entity has the ability to take down some of the greatest of men. How pathetic does that sound? No zero days though. I must do something, just one good thing. When I recover, I will come back with a vengeance. This is but a small bump in the road. You will not stop me. I will win. Lets work. No hype, no motivation this time. Just a man and his battle with life.

The most inspiring people are not the ones we see on the big screens. It comes from people like us - like when our peers accomplish amazing feats. The common ground gives us the hope that we too are capable of achieving great things. I, too, can do it. Today, just hearing the feats of our transferred classmate made me feel like an ant in comparison. I will complete a marathon by the end of this month. This brother completed an IRONMAN Triathlon ... then he completed an 100 mile ultra marathon a few months after. I train MMA. The brother is a supposed blackbelt in Brazilian jiu-jitsu... The brother already made it out and matched into his dream residency. Viet too... Yea bro is a already a resident and got years on me, but still, you know me. I will not be out worked. The ceiling has been raised. Another rung has been added to the ladder, and I must climb it. 2 years to make it happen. LETS WORK!

Greetings Future me, Another year has passed, and I need a reality check... (hey Google, play Afterdark ) My parents are getting older. Everyday that they still work is an INSULT to me and my progress. I should have retired them by now. In the generations of the past, people my age would have had houses and families by now. The FK do i have to show for my toil? NOTHING. No kids, no money, no extravagant gifts, I can't provide sht for them. WTH have I been DOING with my LIFE? F&#^$&#K The last 2 weeks at home were memories that I will cherish forever. I don't take those moments for granted anymore - grateful for everything & family is everything. Yet, it was the first time I noticed the effects of time catching up to my parents. Once, I thought of them as invincible, but now, I see the wrinkles of time, the fatigue in their voices, the weariness in their eyes... that extra bounce of holiday energy... that enthusiasm of the younger days... gone. They have done so much...