30 Days

Hello Future me, 

A whole month has passed, and I have accomplished nothing significant. My progress is that of a paraplegic turtle with Korsakoff syndrome. This is not to say that it was a bad month, for nothing was wrong. However, a wise man once told me, "If you are not getting better, then you are getting worse." My gains were subpar. My studies were bare minimum - got me what I needed but not an inch more. Within one month, I will take the hardest exam that I will have ever taken in my entire life, and the truth is, I might scrape by just enough.

We often don't realize that failure, setbacks, and obstacles are not the killers of dreams and ambitions. Rather, it is complacency... comfort... satisfaction. Its hard for people to change when everything seems right. Why struggle or risk your comfortable position when everything seems "okay"? If there is no deadline,  we will keep pushing back our goals. If there is no urgency, we won't give it a second thought. If there's a backup plan or a safer way, we never take that risk - the initial leap. 

People don't change for no reason. Someone who's living their best life won't suddenly drop everything and go nose to the grind stone with their endeavors. There's always a catalyst or slap of reality that initiates the big changes in someone's life. Failure, rejection, tragedy, etc..

So then why do you want to change if you have everything right now? If you re getting -the grades you want, the lifts and training is going at the same rate as usual, you got your friends and family - then so what if you're more efficient and have time to waste doing jack sht? (I have been wasting hours of free time playing tft auto-chess and watching basketball...) If I continued on this trajectory, would I live a comfortable life? sure....

NO. The beauty in being human is that we have the ability to self-reflect. We don't need an external source of urgency, deadline, or slap of reality to change. As long as the mind wills it, change will happen. I will not grow complacent any longer. Its time to suffer.

No checking phone. No sleeping in. No wasting time. No music. No cheap dopamine. NO CHEAP DOPAMINE!

TIME TO WORK! 30 days LETS GET IT