i am not who i was

Yo future me, the times have been well.  Normally, I record the major highs and lows of life but recently its just been a steady grind. I wanted to write today to get a snapshot in time. I don't want these months to be lost in time. Turn on some Chance Peña and reminisce the days now will ya

I remember the first day at the H was both anxiousness and excitement -did you know, the human brain cannot tell the difference. No one knew what to expect. Placed in a cohort of maybe more than a dozen. After 6 weeks of scrambling around the hospital through early mornings and late nights, today I call many of them brothers. Its the little things you remember. Like us sprinting to the cafeteria 5 minutes before it closes so we don't starve to death on the night shift. Roaming around trying to figure out where to go. Some days were so busy that we didn't even feel the time while others dragged like a bag of sand. On the random chance that we got off early, it felt like a holiday CHRISTMAS. Despite all this, I never felt the Sunday dread. I always looked forward to the week. idk maybe i'm crazy. Each day was different and there's fun in not knowing what to expect.

There was life outside the H too haha. Me and the bro always got a lift in no matter what- whether it was 3 pm or 8pm. Some how I still made time to train jiujitsu at least a couple times a week. How?? The world may never know. Then... there was studying. Oh the dreaded anki... a love hate relationship. Anki got me doing cardio too (treadmill + anki remote + phone app = max productivity). I spent years building the ultimate dual-monitor elite max-productivity big-brain ultra-genius setup... but nowadays, I choose to study at an old cramped dining table with the bros. Stupid jokes, making fun of people's cooking, at times locked in, other times easily distracted, bad music, good times. These are the years I build my foundation. Like Bill gates in his garage. Like Elon in his basement. Like Zuckerberg in his bathroom? idk.

Stay focused on the mission but remember to enjoy your life. This is your youth after all