Secret Stash 225

 So much on my mind, and I've been slacking. SLACKING HARD. Getting restful sleep though. I will be better. Why is it that we worry? Let us rationalize... The root of it all should be that worrying helps us survive; however, as an American in the 21st century, surviving is no longer the sole focus in life. Surviving has become a default; society is built to ensure your survival. Emergency rooms, police, safety policies, welfare, and the people in this community will not let you just die  so easily. Thus, most people don't worry about dying (unless one is subjected to some terminal disease. Bless them). So what do we worry about? Family, friends, relationships, career, school, money. All these things are reasonable to worry about. Why? Because they matter to us. So if we care about something, are we doomed to eternal worrying? The cure to worrying or anything that causes anxiety is to DO something about. Got an exam? go study. Knee hurts? do therapy, work on it. Too much to do ...

 Uhh had to restart, but we on day 4 now Whole week off like it should be. I love how they wait till the last possible second to cancel school. The week went by in a blur and i havent gotten jack squat done. SLeep schedule dun goofed. Very restful at least. I gotta find that motivation again some how. WHERES THE SWAGGER? what is this hobo mindset? 2;27 i'm sleepy peace-si-oh-picasso

I'm genuinely tired lol. Got neuro exam tomorrow and the westerns didn't run... not only that but we don't even have all the antibodies? wow... shts tough bro. 11pm and i cant focus for sht. browsed reddit for 30 mins haha RedFrost though.... those poems hit hard. Courage by Edgar Albert Guest. Courage was never designed for show; It isn't a thing that can come and go; It's written in victory and defeat And every trial a man may meet. It's part of his hours, his days and his years, Back of his smiles and behind his tears. Courage is more than a daring deed: It's the breath of life and a strong man's creed. Failure is refusal to try, failure is stepping a way... SEE IT THROUGH, dont BACK DOWN WOW! Edgar's poems are soul food.  I gotta go study now. Future me will sleep, you better be sleepin good. This suffering is self-inflicted, I will always seek the most challenging existence. (feel like sht now hehe, but this too will pass - it always does)

 HOly fuckdf;aklj... I've been in the lab for 2 weeks straight, not been home earlier than 8, but aye, time feels like it flies though. The days do not drag at all. Gotta respect the grind. Lowry is cake now. SDS gels? i can make those in my sleep. Coomassie? EZ. bruh its just the western then i'm free; I transferred my gel onto a PAPERTOWEL LOL. Where was the damn nitrocellulose membrane (I was dreaming about making casting westerns last night too HHAHAHA) My knee has improved with PT, but lets be real, i'm almost positive that thine menisci is torn. As a matter of fact, our 3v3 team got whooped by PAULO. FKING PAULO from volleyball. (I respect the man. A true volleyball god, but its just he beat me at my own sport so I'm salty) I cant jump like i use to, i dont move like i use to. Might switch to golf... The pile grows bruh. Lost 10 pts because I erased the right answer in elucidations, still got the 2nd highest score (hehe flexed on boi) Gettin ass whipped in statist...