Secret Stash 225

1 day left and I shall be eternally freed.  I can already smell the summer air! Those warm carefree days. Waking up at noon with not a single shit to give. Sky blue every time I look up. Eating out everyday and watching movies into the late hours of the night. Hoopin & ballin, reading, gaming , start swimming again too? SO MUCH TO DO, but at the same time, SO MUCH TIME TO DO NOTHING :D Now don't get me wrong, there's still work that must be done. Applications to finish and work to start (eventually - lets hold off on this lol). Volunteering too. Its the summer vibe though, hits different. Life becomes so much brighter and warmer. Music sounds 1000x better; Allstar becomes the theme song for life. Windows down and singing at the top of my lungs I HAD A DREAM SO BIG AND LOUD, I JUMP SO HIGH I TOUCHED THE CLOUDS WOH OWHOWHWOWHOWHOW -EARTH CALLING- ...back to reality Here I sit... in this musty ass room, the sky is gray with storm clouds (distant rumblings of thunder echoes acr...

Greetings to the future me, Exam week has commenced and we have started off strong. The dragon of statistics has been slain within a single blow. A true feat. A temporary respite was earned before the onslaught: three back to back beasts (two within the same hours).  SAVE YOUR TeARS FOR ANOTHE DAY! stuck my head. I use to save good songs so that they don't lose their effect, but I 've learned that this method is not dependable. Songs will lose their effect overtime anyway, so binge BINGE. LOOP THAT SHT FOREVER. Here is a speech to the younglings: Hello everyone. Time really flies doesn't it? It felt like yesterday I was just a freshman. Damn..... BRO. Its a bittersweet moment right now (sweet & sour, Polynesian?). Its joy but also sadness. One door closes and another one opens. Life moves on, it always does. When we're young, everything seems so overwhelming.... SO NEW. The unknown seems so scary. What will the future hold for me? How will I figure everything out? E...

Do you ever get the realization of how young we actually are? It just hit me. Most of the things I do probably wont even matter in the long run. We are still figuring things out; I'm in the stage of life where one can screw up royally and it won't even matter. Every stressful event or setback seems like the end of the world, but in reality, its just the beginning. My life has barely even started! I am young lol. Bro wtf... I'm YOUNG. I mean... just think about it. When people wish for a redo in life, THIS is the AGE they wish for. There are people out there are making a living trying to feed their kids and shit while homeboy thinks life is over because of a bombed physics test. Life hasn't EVEN STARTED. If the most stressful things in your life are school and grades then  HAHAHAHAHAH. (me) JK (but seriously) First world problems :)  Looking back... I've had it good and I'm thankful. From this day forth, I will be more grateful; I'm in the prime of my life FF...

Greetings Future me, From the sunlit round chair of the engineering building (third floor), I write this. Tis early, for the sun has yet to reach its apex.  Today, I have made a profound discovery! Caffeine. Expresso 22. What is this power I feel? How can one drink bestow such vigor!? Is this the nectar of Olympus? Awakening from the form of a half zombie (5 am couldnt go back to sleep) ... but with this drink, I ascended into the enlightened state. WOW.  HAHHAHAHHAH. I FEEL UNSTOPPABLE. However, thine effects were not immediate. The windows of my soul could not stay open during the period of elucidations; unfortunately, that lecture must be reviewed at a later moment. I feel like I just had 50 HOURS of sleep. The adenosine receptors of thine brain have all been repressed. LIFE COULD BE DReAM. In this state, I can accomplish ANYTHING! The  sun appears brighter, the sky bluer, and the trees more vibrant! Life. is . beautiful. With further consideration and research, I beli...

     These past few days I've been resting, and it was a rest well deserved (and well needed). It was a weird state of mind. Kind of like a limbo (without the pole). I was without an immediate goal or purpose, neither moving forward or backwards. I may have been free from struggles and obligations, but a man without purpose loses his flame. Thus, it is time to continue the journey. Its time to develop some systems! "Ain't gone yet" - petyonorth A man is not defined by single moment, but rather, he is the product of his every habits.  If you want to read more, the goal is not to read 52 books a year. Instead, the goal should be to read a little everyday. Tiny habits and changes accumulate and multiply like any other investment. No you will not get more jacked than Hugh Jackman after a week of going to the gym. It takes time bro. Its the everyday grind. It will take months, maybe even years for results to start showing. (I'm preaching and sht about the book Atomic H...

WE DID BOYS. FREEDOM!!!!!!!!!! We saw it through despite the amount of times I could've thrown in the towels. But this feeling... its more relief than it is joy. Truth is... i'll miss the long nights, the toil. I'll miss the ups and the downs. The grind, the constant thought of working towards something. HAHAHAAHA, but who am I kidding. The storm has passed, smooth sailing ahead. I am truly grateful for my sensei (PI). During the process, I was pushed beyond expectations I never thought were possible. The standards were raised 1000 folds. (imagine my standard being a 100 foot tree, now imagine Mt. Everest) Towards the end though, it was all support. Truly inspirational. Here's a piece of advice I'll never forget. If you ever have a presentation, a talk, or an interview, give the speech 100 times before you actually give it. Look into background information like Cyclops looking at Magneto. Go through every single line in that paper or slide. Make each phrase irrefuta...

When you pour your heart and soul into your goals, when you spend every waking moment working on that goal, and maybe you fall short. What does it matter? If you know you gave it your all, then what is there to regret. Nothing. No shame in trying. No shame in failure. None in falling. I've come to the realization that it really doesn't matter. (Maybe its my mind trying to embrace what may come) Either way, I gave my everything into this, and trust me, I learned more than ever through this journey. My technical writing abilities have improved tremendously. Obviously, that doesn't matter on this hill billy blog hahahaha. I write what i want here, my own kingdom. I've acquired new abilities and skills. I learned to manage time, coordinate , email, meet deadlines, and most of all I've seen the standard that separates the greats from the goons. I'm glad I was held to those standards. I'm 100x better than before I started, and for that reason, thank you to the pas...

 Damn G, its not just me atleast. me and alex suffering together lol.... just one more week and i'm done Heres a poem: I see the light at the end of the tunnel. I see freedom. I see days with warm sun and blue skies. I feel the breeze, the fluffy white clouds. I hear my cheeese playlist playing on max, windows rolled down, no shits given. I'm happy again, CARE FREEE BABY! .... but not yet .... theres still much left to do mountains i must climb, rivers to cross, trial by fire PUSH THROUGH win or lose. after one week, i'm free Yo future me, i promise i didnt give up. One more week, i'll give it my all.