Secret Stash 225

Greetings, My studies are going well. I feel healthy & alert. Focused. I've been eating clean (steaks every other day haha) and sleeping well. Good lifts and good joints. I've struggling to hit that calorie count lately though. Play - Coffee for your Head I was thinking. We grow and change, but so does the world around us. As the years go by, many things are lost in the past while new ones arise. Back when times were simpler, I remember the bros getting dropped off at my cousin's house - ride bikes and go to the park. When driving became possible, they would drive to our house and we would game late into the night. Damn bro we use to hoop every other week at different parks. Who knew one day it would be the last time. The last time we all leagued as a team. The last time we were all able to hoop together. One day it was the last time we rode bikes on that street. The last time we'd have movie nights on that dusty ass couch haha. All the stuff recently too, like who ...

12:36 AM. Interstellar main theme hums in the background. I should be asleep. Update: It seems like I always come back to this blog during exam week. Ah so be it. I tried fasting during Ramadan and lasted 2 days haha; could not focus for the life of me. I have profound respect for people who do it though. Crawfish boil at the res today, and then, some of the br homies stopped by to visit too. The med squad on their grind as always haha. All seems well, but there is something on my mind (otherwise I'd be snoozing) I was scrolling through my phone to find a picture and ended up on nostalgia lane looking at all the old pictures... I miss my family bro. I'm starting to miss the old days. Man fuck this shit hole city, stranded here with no car. Fk all this concrete and gray... and construction... and noise and... Let me see some trees; wanna sit down and look out at the pond. I haven't been home in almost 4 months now, and I only live an hour away too, like damn.  NAH wth is thi...

     It is the midst of night. I want to rise at 5am from now on, but my body refuses to rest. I rolled for an hour, anki-ed for an hour, but could not slumber. Now, I will study until my eyes beg for rest. There is a constant war between the body and mind. In most people, the body wins, and they fall to comfort and poor habits. They cannot maintain the calorie restriction or choose the vegetables. They rather snooze at every opportunity, skip workouts when tired, scroll aimless in cyberspace than read a book or take a walk. At other times, the mind will win, and we may get a sprout of productiveness throughout the day. There is a balance - push and pull between the two. Harmony as many would call it. But not for me... this is unacceptable. There should be NO harmony between the two. The mind is the master, and the body bends to its WILL. Sometimes it is necessary to remind the latter of who is in charge through cold plunges or fasting. I will rise tomorrow before the sun...

 This is a response to: For the future me -Don't Read till 3/10/2023 "I am creating my future self, I am creating you.  Hopefully, I have not let us down. In truth, I just hope you are genuinely happy. I hope you've found yourself and your goals in life. May the universe bless you on your future endeavors." - me 2 yrs ago in 2021      Yo younger me, look how I made you proud hhahahaha! First off, I am genuinely grateful for all the investments and sacrifices of my past. Our priorities have changed a bit though; I haven't touched a basketball more than 3x in the last year. We do Brazilian jiu jitsu now, and it's much easier on the knees - sort of. Bro... if you could see us now, we passed 170 lb months ago, and we've been eating clean as fk and lifting heavier than ever before. I feel as good and focused as EVER - no more tracking sleep on that bullshit little smart watch, I rise when I am fully restored. In terms of academic goals, you made it happen, WE...

 what is truth? is it the word spoken by others? It's easy to swayed in today's world. But to be clear, truth is the reality that we experience. That is the one truth we can truly know. Why should we believe something about someone else based on another's account or bias? That is their reality and perception of the situation, filled with their own bias. To truly know someone, you simply speak with them directly. Ask - if you are uncertain, but never assume. Seek to see the best in others unless proven otherwise by your own experience. For example, if the internet told you butterflies bite, but you lived your entire life without a butterfly biting you. In fact, you've held butterflies before and they were always friendly... would you deny your own reality to believe the account of someone else? In the same way, why should you deny your own perception of someone (your own reality from lived experiences)? Why deny it to believe the interpretation of someone else's bias...

     This zen shit is making me soft. If you study 2 hours a day, then I'm gonna study 4. If you study 6 hours, then I'm gonna study 8 hours. If you read 2 books, Imma read 4 books. You workout everyday? Okay, I'll start working out twice a day. You wake up at 5, then I wake up at 4. I'm not hungry, I"M STARVING. It's nothing personal, I just have to be fucking better than you thats all. Whether you know it or not doesn't matter to me, as long as I know. You might beat me today or tmr or a whole year, but it doesn't matter because you won't outwork me over 3yrs or 5yrs or 10 yrs. I will win. People who live like this don't have to say or announce anything. Their drive and passion just fking radiates. We look at them and we know - "that's a bad mfker..." One of the bros lives exactly like this. He can only be found in the gym or the library. Never a moment dicking around. That's pure focus, true inspiration. LETS GET IT

 Imagine... A man finds his path and ventures it through. Through toil and pain, he explores new lands, sails the seas, unveils the unknown. Man gains strength. He finds peace and wisdom. Through his success and discipline, he can carry those around him. That's great and all but imagine this... that same man inspires his brothers to embark upon the same path of the grind. They grow and rise together. Strong, wise, disciplined - A LEGION OF JUGGERNAUTS!! Imagine rolling up with the squad after everyone got jacked as fuck It is not enough for self improvement, there needs to be squad improvement. Inspire your brethren too!  Figure 100. Space Marines Conquering an Alien planet.  The juggernauts think of nothing but the grind - they lift hard every day, study every day, research everyday. Their only goal is to build and conquer.